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Dec. 10th, 2003 06:45 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I'm not doing well.
I have this interview for a trainer position today. I don't know if I can do it. I am general uncomfortable with public speaking and getting up in front of people. And I'm incredibly uncomfortable with interviews. Put them together and I am panicked. I tried to put together an outline for it last night, but my mind simply wouldn't focus on it - every time I tried, I stopped being able to do anything but stare blankly at the screen.
I should be preparing this morning, in between calls. But I can't. Trying to focus on it just creates more panic. And I can't even do my usual duties in the morning.
I'm not sure the job is worth being a wreck for. Even if it is, I'm not sure I'm capable of handling the stress right now. I want to just email the manager and withdraw my application. The only reason I am not is because I know that I am panicked and my thought processes are messed up. But I don't know what I am going to do about the interview.
EDIT: After freaking out about it for a bit, I feel a little better. Maybe I just need to do some basic preparation and just go from instinct from the rest. I dunno
I have this interview for a trainer position today. I don't know if I can do it. I am general uncomfortable with public speaking and getting up in front of people. And I'm incredibly uncomfortable with interviews. Put them together and I am panicked. I tried to put together an outline for it last night, but my mind simply wouldn't focus on it - every time I tried, I stopped being able to do anything but stare blankly at the screen.
I should be preparing this morning, in between calls. But I can't. Trying to focus on it just creates more panic. And I can't even do my usual duties in the morning.
I'm not sure the job is worth being a wreck for. Even if it is, I'm not sure I'm capable of handling the stress right now. I want to just email the manager and withdraw my application. The only reason I am not is because I know that I am panicked and my thought processes are messed up. But I don't know what I am going to do about the interview.
EDIT: After freaking out about it for a bit, I feel a little better. Maybe I just need to do some basic preparation and just go from instinct from the rest. I dunno