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Jun. 24th, 2003 06:35 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vaxjediWhining time.
I was late to work again today. I missed the cut-off time by a minute.
This, combined with leaving early last week because I was exhuasted, means I'm up from a first written warning to a final written warning. So if I am late twice or sick once until the end of July, I loose my job.
Oh, and since I have not gotten my yearly review that was due in March, this will probably negatively affect it, as I will be on a major written warning when they look up my stats.
I'm just so tired. I can't concentrate at work anymore. I can't focus on my job, I'm giving techs bad answers. I am burnt out on a job where there is continually more to do and progressively less to do it with. I am backed into a corner. I have no opportunity to develop more skills that might make me more useful to my team because I am buried in an avalanche of administrivia. The only thing I'm really good at is one really obscure product that is becoming less and less of a priority on the team. But I have no opportnity for effective training on other products. My troubleshooting skills are languishing and the techs I help are beginning to notice. And as the team progresses, I am not able to progress with it. Why is it that other people can make it into work every day and not be late?
I'm afraid. I don't want to lose my job. I have to have the insurance for Miri. And I'm not making enough as it is to keep us afloat. I do really badly in interviews. There are just no jobs around here.
*sigh* I'm tired and burnt out. And it doesn't matter, because everyone else is tired and burnt out too. Thye have to continue, so I do as well.
I was late to work again today. I missed the cut-off time by a minute.
This, combined with leaving early last week because I was exhuasted, means I'm up from a first written warning to a final written warning. So if I am late twice or sick once until the end of July, I loose my job.
Oh, and since I have not gotten my yearly review that was due in March, this will probably negatively affect it, as I will be on a major written warning when they look up my stats.
I'm just so tired. I can't concentrate at work anymore. I can't focus on my job, I'm giving techs bad answers. I am burnt out on a job where there is continually more to do and progressively less to do it with. I am backed into a corner. I have no opportunity to develop more skills that might make me more useful to my team because I am buried in an avalanche of administrivia. The only thing I'm really good at is one really obscure product that is becoming less and less of a priority on the team. But I have no opportnity for effective training on other products. My troubleshooting skills are languishing and the techs I help are beginning to notice. And as the team progresses, I am not able to progress with it. Why is it that other people can make it into work every day and not be late?
I'm afraid. I don't want to lose my job. I have to have the insurance for Miri. And I'm not making enough as it is to keep us afloat. I do really badly in interviews. There are just no jobs around here.
*sigh* I'm tired and burnt out. And it doesn't matter, because everyone else is tired and burnt out too. Thye have to continue, so I do as well.
