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[vaxjedi]

So yeah, what Eleri said.


I do know it's for the best. It feels like crap though. I keep wondering what Miri is doing right now. Is she sad? Is she happy? Does she miss us? Does she wonder why Mommy and Daddy aren't there? Does she hope we are coming back? Does she think she'll never see us again? Is her little heart breaking because her world is gone? or are Mommy and Daddy taking this much harder than she is? Maybe I have seen too many kids movies where kids go to places and are miserable and their parents never know...

We'll be going to see her and visit. They have visiting hours and such. We just have to figure out when to get there - when we can make the trip again, when is best for her according to the doctors, etc.

We drove home late last night. I have been trying to supress how I feel about all of this, bury it under layers of necessity and focus on the relief of getting a break. All it did was make me snap at Eleri several times from the stress and exhaustion. I'm with Eleri - I don't think it will ever really feel okay.

Comments

[zaiah.livejournal.com]

*hugs fiercely* Rest a few days.. be kind to each other.. then let that uilding into taking action. action that is best for you, your relationships, your family.

[yarram.livejournal.com]

*big hugs*

Parenting: it's a tough job, but someone's got to worry about the kids, even when said kid is out of direct parental control.

Take the time to take care of yourself and Eleri.

*more hugs* if you want 'em.

[oceansedge.livejournal.com]

I said it to Eleri, and I'll say it to you...

This will change you, it takes a big piece out of you that you can never have back. But there will come a time, and a place when it'll be ok. I know right now it feels selfish, that you're doing this for you and Eleri - and you are. But you're also doing it for Miri. You cannot give her the help she needs or deserves if she's drained you of every ounce of resource you have.

[jennkitty.livejournal.com]

she'll be ok. it'll be easier for them to detox her without you there, honestly, because it'll likely be tough to watch.

you've done your best for her, and this is a part of that.

it's not a failing, it's an opportunity for all of you.

let us know when you might be down, when visiting hours are, etc.

<<<<hug>>>>>

[see-tree-me.livejournal.com]

Hold on to the truth of the matter - she is where she needs to be and where its best for her to be.

And hold onto each other.

But let go of your anger and grief; I don't mean negate it or stuff it, I mean express it. Find a safe way to vent your feelings with each other instead of at each other.

If you need help with that let me know. I know some tools for that.

Re: <<<<hug>>>>>

[vaxjedi]

That would be good. Plus I think Eleri really needs another massage :)

[xiombarg.livejournal.com]

You did what you had to. Yes, it's painful, but it needed to be done.

[dehrek.livejournal.com]

I think it's very brave of you and Eleri to have done what you did with Miri. Acts that are for the best, don't necessarily have to be easy to do, or easy to live through, I know from experience.
Much luck and hugs!