vaxjedi | Excerpts

These are excerpts from conversations I've been having tonight. I want to make these publicly visible, so people can see these parts of my mind. These were directed at individual people, but they apply to many people. If you think it might apply to you, it probably does.

The point here is that while I came up with these while talking to individuals, they are expressions of how a feel about several people - I just got it right when talking to this person or that.

I have trouble letting people know how I feel. I worry because I feel strongly for several people that the people I love think my love is common, a devalued coin...

*looks you in the eyes* Please never think that. That youa re a number, or just one among many. I love you dearly in ways that I love no other. It's only the inadequecy of human expression that makes some of it look the same as I express to others.

I just want to shake the pillars of Heaven by kissing you. By fucking you and holding you and by owning you and by being with you. I want the Gods to clear the stars from the sky so I can fill it up with constellations of the people I love and how I love them. I want to set stars in the sky just for you, so you can look up at night and see how I feel for you.

My emotions are all over the map. I want tot share so many little realiztions with you. I want to really make our relationship something extraordinary. I want the world to be jealous of us.

My challenge is to not forget that I am a part of me too, since I tend to think of you as the better part of me.

I am afriad I won't be strong enough to keep you. So I want to work on that. To be strong so I can feel you in my grasp