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A list of joys in my life. Little things, big things. In no particular order. And not a complete list. Lots of these are people, because I derive joy from people most often. Some of these are partiularly sexually explicit, because I derive a lot of joy from that, so you have an official TMI warning here.

Cheese Fries at the Outback - sometimes it is the simple things. Nothing improves my mood like going to the Outback for cheese fries (extra cheese, extra bacon) and getting a No Rules Burger with bleu cheese, BBQ sauce, chedder cheese and bacon. I'm not particularly creative with food, but it works for me.
The Mouse - My daughter Mirriam is a constant joy. In some ways, it's sort of confusing, as I have spent most of my adult life deriving joy from people with a sexual component. Here is joy that doesn't folow that route, so it's a very surreal feeling. But I think she's adorable. Nothing makes me feel like when she says "dada!" when I get home and runs to give me a hug.
Sinnish - writing Sinnish has been a very difficult puzzle for me at times, taking a lot of my brain power to consider all of the options and decide. However, it's been an absolute blast. I can't think of an intellectual and artistic pursuit that I've enjoyed as much as this.
Eleri - I really really like being around Eleri. We can talk about all sorts of things. We had a wonderful conversation about Lord of the Rings last night, for instance. We can talk about Sinnish, or games, or movies, or books, or birth, or sex, or religion. And she responds. I tend to ramble when I get started. But Eleri responds to me, she adds to my ideas and I add to hers. I find Eleri incredibly sexy. I love the feel of her body against mine. I love teh fact that she likes most of my kinks and the ones she doesn't she doesn't give me a hard time about. I think, tho, it's the fact that she understands me more than anyone I've known and can respond in kind.
Civilization - the computer games. I love getting lost for hours in the complexity of the game. I adored playing Civ II. And I've played Civ III twice and desperately want to play it more.
Talking Dirty - I love talking dirty and I love hearing it. I simply can't get enough of hearing it. I am very nervous about doing it myself, because I am so afraid of sounding stupid. But once I start, wow, it feels good. Sometimes, I like it more than the sex itself.
The people I love - I was gonna put specific entries about the people I love in here. I think I'd never finish, tho. And I'd be afraid of leaving someone out. But if I love you, you generally know who you are. There are a few people I can't tell them how much I do love them for various reasons. However, each person I love is a unique joy. And I can't begin to describe the spectrum and diversity of feeling I have for each person, even those I haven't seen or interacted with for years. Like I said in a previous post once, I want to clear the stars out of the sky and put in a constellation for each person I love so they can look up into the night sky and point and say 'see that one there. Blade put that there just for me.'
Being fucked - here's one of the TMI ones. I love being fucked. When it comes to actual penetration, I love taking it. Honestly, no sex has felt better.
Time to myself - having time I can just read, or play computer games, or work on a project, or just lie in bed is a subtle pleasure that really makes my life better.
Hematite - yeah the stone. I love hematite. It looks cool, it feels cool. I keep breaking my hematite rings tho.
Jay and Silent Bob - not only do I look like Bob, but the Kevin Smith movies are just really cool. Even Mallrats has redeeming features.
My Visor - yeah, it's a materialistic thing, and I dont use it as much as I should for dates and such, but otherwise, it's sooo cool. I have all the notes for my RPG background on there and a bunch for Sinnish on it. In that respect, it's been very very helpful. What'd I'd like is a memory card that I could put some books onto to read when I have free time.
"Veterans of the Psychic Wars" by Blue Oyster Cult - I love this song. When I'm depressed, it's incredibly theraputic. When Im in a good mood, it's almost like an anthem, even though it is
My Trenchcoat - I like my trenchcoat. Simple thing. I feel better when wearing it. I need to decorate it.