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Jun. 24th, 2003 06:35 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vaxjediWhining time.
I was late to work again today. I missed the cut-off time by a minute.
This, combined with leaving early last week because I was exhuasted, means I'm up from a first written warning to a final written warning. So if I am late twice or sick once until the end of July, I loose my job.
Oh, and since I have not gotten my yearly review that was due in March, this will probably negatively affect it, as I will be on a major written warning when they look up my stats.
I'm just so tired. I can't concentrate at work anymore. I can't focus on my job, I'm giving techs bad answers. I am burnt out on a job where there is continually more to do and progressively less to do it with. I am backed into a corner. I have no opportunity to develop more skills that might make me more useful to my team because I am buried in an avalanche of administrivia. The only thing I'm really good at is one really obscure product that is becoming less and less of a priority on the team. But I have no opportnity for effective training on other products. My troubleshooting skills are languishing and the techs I help are beginning to notice. And as the team progresses, I am not able to progress with it. Why is it that other people can make it into work every day and not be late?
I'm afraid. I don't want to lose my job. I have to have the insurance for Miri. And I'm not making enough as it is to keep us afloat. I do really badly in interviews. There are just no jobs around here.
*sigh* I'm tired and burnt out. And it doesn't matter, because everyone else is tired and burnt out too. Thye have to continue, so I do as well.
I was late to work again today. I missed the cut-off time by a minute.
This, combined with leaving early last week because I was exhuasted, means I'm up from a first written warning to a final written warning. So if I am late twice or sick once until the end of July, I loose my job.
Oh, and since I have not gotten my yearly review that was due in March, this will probably negatively affect it, as I will be on a major written warning when they look up my stats.
I'm just so tired. I can't concentrate at work anymore. I can't focus on my job, I'm giving techs bad answers. I am burnt out on a job where there is continually more to do and progressively less to do it with. I am backed into a corner. I have no opportunity to develop more skills that might make me more useful to my team because I am buried in an avalanche of administrivia. The only thing I'm really good at is one really obscure product that is becoming less and less of a priority on the team. But I have no opportnity for effective training on other products. My troubleshooting skills are languishing and the techs I help are beginning to notice. And as the team progresses, I am not able to progress with it. Why is it that other people can make it into work every day and not be late?
I'm afraid. I don't want to lose my job. I have to have the insurance for Miri. And I'm not making enough as it is to keep us afloat. I do really badly in interviews. There are just no jobs around here.
*sigh* I'm tired and burnt out. And it doesn't matter, because everyone else is tired and burnt out too. Thye have to continue, so I do as well.
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Date: 2003-06-24 09:03 am (UTC)Ryan
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Date: 2003-06-24 10:50 am (UTC)A minute?!!
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Date: 2003-06-24 11:05 am (UTC)I know you have to prioritize, and this may seem potentially damaging financially, but my idea is, put in an RTO for a day off. As soon as you can...next week, the week after...whereever it's allowed next. Take that day off, and don't do anything. I'm serious. Don't run errands, don't call anyone... just be lazy.
It's only one day, so it may not do much, but it may do just enough. And, it's only one day, so it shouldn't make you suffer too badly where money is concerned. It will hurt a little bit, but based on the direction you're going, it's worth it. Sacrificing one days pay so that you can recharge your battery and possibly keep your job is worth it (i think). And just knowing that you have that day coming up can help you get to it.
Seriously... you need it. You need to be selfish, even if it's only for a little while. Take this day and don't think about work, eat too much, sit around, play pc/video games till you're mind is numb. Take a nap. You deserve it... and at the rate you're going, you and everyone around you will benefit from it. You won't be doing just yourself a favor... you'll be doing it for everyone around you.
imho, of course.
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Date: 2003-06-24 11:17 am (UTC)Even though you're not actually looking right now, try putting your resume up on different sites and keeping an eye out for a good position...not in a stressy way, just in a "You never know" way.:)
Will be thinking lots of Good Thoughts and Vibes at you. Not just that this blows over but that you have less stress in general.
Love you.
Gessi
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Date: 2003-06-24 04:17 pm (UTC)It's an automatic point system, all handled by our time card program. 5 points, verbal warning, 6 points written warning. 7 points, final written warning. 8 points, you are fired. And something mentioned to me that seniors get demoted at 7, because it's company policy that you can't be a senior on a final written warning.
Points roll off in 6 months. My last rash of lates was in january. So, throughout July, points will go away. By the end, I'll be in a safe area. But in the mean time, if I am late twice or call in sick once, I might as well not come back.
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Date: 2003-06-24 07:40 pm (UTC)