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vaxjediCore dump again
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ryoganox and jennkitty took me out to dinner on Friday. Ryoganox made a comment about me having 'gained some levels as a father' and that evidence of it was that I was not as reluctant to let other people take care of Miri. Honestly, it never was that I didn't trust people wit Miri at all. It was always really that, as Miri's father, Miri is my responsibility. Letting people other than her family watch her felt like I was dumping my responsibility on others.
I was reading more about White-Wolf's Time o' Judgement thing they are doing. I'm actually excitied about it. I'd like to see how the end it. And I realized another reason I'm really excited - a new World of Darkness. I want to see what they do and I like the idea of taking part in it from the beginning.
I miss gaming. I miss exploring gaming worlds. I miss knowing a lot about a world and explaining it to other people.
I want to run a game. Probably my Nocturne/Rapture/etc background. But not until I can devote an appropriate amount of time to it so I can keep it going. I don't want to end up bored with or burnt out on games like I have in the past and just quit. Especially not with this background.
I've got a bunch of stuff in my head I want to talk about, but find it difficult to do, even in my own journal. Too much of it is emotionally charged for me. And a lot of it, like sexuality issues, gender issues, spirituality - I find myself going around and around in the same circles. And I'm tired of whining about the same thing again and again.
I had more, but Miri has been not sleeping and my thoughts are gone.
ryoganox and jennkitty took me out to dinner on Friday. Ryoganox made a comment about me having 'gained some levels as a father' and that evidence of it was that I was not as reluctant to let other people take care of Miri. Honestly, it never was that I didn't trust people wit Miri at all. It was always really that, as Miri's father, Miri is my responsibility. Letting people other than her family watch her felt like I was dumping my responsibility on others. I was reading more about White-Wolf's Time o' Judgement thing they are doing. I'm actually excitied about it. I'd like to see how the end it. And I realized another reason I'm really excited - a new World of Darkness. I want to see what they do and I like the idea of taking part in it from the beginning.
I miss gaming. I miss exploring gaming worlds. I miss knowing a lot about a world and explaining it to other people.
I want to run a game. Probably my Nocturne/Rapture/etc background. But not until I can devote an appropriate amount of time to it so I can keep it going. I don't want to end up bored with or burnt out on games like I have in the past and just quit. Especially not with this background.
I've got a bunch of stuff in my head I want to talk about, but find it difficult to do, even in my own journal. Too much of it is emotionally charged for me. And a lot of it, like sexuality issues, gender issues, spirituality - I find myself going around and around in the same circles. And I'm tired of whining about the same thing again and again.
I had more, but Miri has been not sleeping and my thoughts are gone.
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Date: 2003-08-11 10:45 pm (UTC)I've found that, sometimes, when I'm mentally running in circles, the track that I'm running in will, itself, define something new. Sometimes not, but just in case, I go ahead and keep covering the same ground.
I must be getting tired. I'm not sure if what I just typed is profound or drivel. It may be both.