vaxjedi | (no subject)

The Interview and other things/

Actually, it wen't pretty well. Once I got some food in me, I started to feel better. Then I had to run home to get matching shoes, since I totally spaced that (no one else has problems like that *g*) and Eleri had a sandwich waiting for me. After that, I was nervous, but I wasn't a wreck like I was before.

I think part of it was a low blood sugar thing. As soon as I got some food in me, I started dealing with the stress better. Maybe I've been fighting some seasonal depression, as lately I'm really down until I eat, and Ive been eating a lot more than I ever have, honestly. I've dropped down to diet soda all of the time. I drink a LOT of soda, so that should get rid of a bunch of the calories.

But anyway, the actual interview portion went well. I think I made a few good points there. The training session was fine - turns out I didn't have the resources available to do anything BUT a lecture. But I think I imparted information.

So I think I have a chance. Not sure how much of a chance, though. And I won't be horribly disappointed if I don't get it.

I'm also tired. I really need to just sleep for a long time. Ive been staying up later than I should for several days and not sleeping well when I do sleep.

I haven't been talking much on here. I've just been feeling dark and depressed. I don't want to talk if I'm just going to be depressing. And I'm worried that that venting might hurt people's feelings. Eleri does a lot for me, and Ryan and Jenn have been life savers so many times. It feels like I'm being disrespectful to them and all they do if I am lonely, or depressed, or needy. I really feel like I need to get away from my life for a little bit. But, once again, that seems like disrespectful and insensitive somehow.

I am always behind on reading my Friends list. I'm going to have to trim it down, since I really just don't have to time to read it all. So if I defriend you, please don't take it personally. I just need a smaller scope to focus on right now.

My email game is going well, though only two people are actually playing. The rest of you have yet to send me stuff or get together with me to hash out characters. Tsk tsk tsk.

However, I am happy with the background I've prepared - it seems to be coming through in the details pretty well so far - we've just barely started.