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[vaxjedi]

I am so close to quitting my job in disgust.

Our vendor is angry about our service level in our Expert area. So my bosses' boss decided to add everyone to the Expert group. Even the morons.

And we got people to fill the empty positions at my level that we lost, so we are up to staffing to when we were barely making it. And said bosses' boss cut back the hours for the people supporting me. Thus essentially cutting my available manpower by half as well as shuffling responsibilities so that I'm not entirely sure what I'm supposed to be doing.

I don't need this shit. I really don't. The only thing that's keeping me from walking is the fact that I need the money. There are no lower stress jobs around here that I can get to. And most of the jobs I'd qualify for other places pay significantly less. And if I quit, I won't even get unemployment.

I don't need this shit. I don't need this stress. I am not keeping my life together. I'm getting less and less patient with Miri. I need to find a therapist, but I'm honestly afraid of them - I simply don't think any of them will understand me and what's going on. I just want to start clawing at my face just to release the pressure in my head.

I really can't hide it anymore. I mean, I haven't been hiding it really well. But I think the extent of it has been muted. I am just no longer functional.

Comments

[xiombarg.livejournal.com]

I assume you've considered talking to your boss about this situation?

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[vaxjedi]

I have in general. The response is "Yeah I know. Nothing we can do about it."

*hugs*

[bloodlikerain.livejournal.com]

*hugs* you do seem to be gettting more and more distressed. Therapy may not be a half--bad idea babe.

[quility.livejournal.com]

One of the business world lessons that I was just beginning to see by the time I was ending my last job - and which I still don't do well at all - but which I recognize as being VERY important - is:

telling your boss the consequences you foresee.

Not only does this cover your ass (to some degree), but it can be an opportunity to improve your standing.

Choosing how you say it is key.

Think about what your boss wants to hear (yes I know lots of this is manipulative and counter to your usual honest/straight forward way of thinking - but if it actually produces good results - it's worth it).
So your boss wants to hear what you are doing to cover his ass. He wants to feel that you are on his (I'm just going to go with male pronouns) side and that you are working to make things better for him.

This means that even if you don't improve anything you are doing - it's a good idea to point out the good things you are doing for him.

So here's a draft of what you might say based generally on what you posted.
Hi boss - Isn't it a bummer that we are getting resources taken away from the department I'm in? I'm doing my best to make sure the high standard of quality that we've maintained does not get adversely affected by the reduction in resources. I'm doing everything I can to make sure that vendors have no reason to be mad at us like they were at the Expert group area. I just want you to know that I'm going to try to work 120% instead of the 110% I've been giving to try to makeup for these changes. It would be really great if we could get __________ in here to help out. and if my responsibilities could be clarified.
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As I said I'm not good at this myself - but I've seen ppl do it. They don't actually work any harder - they just point out that they are and .. I guess be a squeaky wheel in a way that looks like you are just looking out for company interests.

*HUG*
I know how hard things are for you right now - I've been "praying" for you and your family.
In regards to the therapist - you have ever right to be concerned that they might not understand you - but it's your right to change therapists if they don't and your right to shop around before you try one. I have a list somewhere of questions I asked therapists before I started last time. How long have you been practicing? How much experience do you have with stress management? Have you worked with bisexuals before? Have you worked with polyamorous ppl before? Please be honest with me - would any of these cause you a problem? What is your theory toward treatment? long term? short term? drugs? groups?
That soft of thing. and if they don't measure up - let them know and ask if they have any recommendations.

You have a right to pursue and be happy. :)

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[vaxjedi]

telling your boss the consequences you foresee.

I do, rather frequently. She brings it up to her boss who pretty much tells her it's her job to make it work with what she's been given.

[arib.livejournal.com]

I'm not a therapist, but if you need to talk you can always get in touch with me.

[maile.livejournal.com]

i wish there was something i could do to help.

:/

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[eleri.livejournal.com]

just the little bits you've offered are great. The three of us should sit down and talk details at some point :)

[boognish2332.livejournal.com]

I know where you're coming from
oh I know
but I'm always willing to help. If you need some muscle...ask someone else...if you need brains...find me.
I'm here

[gax.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I understand the overwhelming emotion in this entry. I hope the brunt of it has subsided, I rather like your face the way it is (re: clawing it). :)