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Feb. 19th, 2004 05:43 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vaxjediI woke up this morning and went to get up for work and just didn't move. I lay on the bed for like 15 mins and finally realized that I just wasn't going to be able to handle work today. So I called in. Miri has an appointment today anyway.
I guess this is a mental health day. I feel guilty about these days. Work is so stressful when someone is out. I hate to leave people in a bind. And I really should have stayed home Tuesday, because Miri had major appointments that day.
Maybe I push myself too hard. Whenever I can make it to work, I do, even if I'm sick or Eleri is sick or whatever. Then suddenly I'll just not be able to handle a day and can't get myself to go to work. for no good reason. It always seems to happen on a week where it would have been so much better if I did it a different day, because of appointments and such.
I worry about my status at work. My ex-peer at work used to be out a lot before they fired him. They didn't fire him for that, but it made the environment very hostile to him - he was resented by people below him, by his peers and by management. I don't want that to happen to me. I just want everyone to like me.
So today is a mental health day for Blade. maybe I can help Eleri get some rest today too.
What I really needed was that full two weeks of leave. But I cut it to one since work was so busy. Then we found things we needed the money we were gonna save for that extra week, since I wasn't going to take it off. *sigh* Best laid plans if Mouse and her daddy.
I guess this is a mental health day. I feel guilty about these days. Work is so stressful when someone is out. I hate to leave people in a bind. And I really should have stayed home Tuesday, because Miri had major appointments that day.
Maybe I push myself too hard. Whenever I can make it to work, I do, even if I'm sick or Eleri is sick or whatever. Then suddenly I'll just not be able to handle a day and can't get myself to go to work. for no good reason. It always seems to happen on a week where it would have been so much better if I did it a different day, because of appointments and such.
I worry about my status at work. My ex-peer at work used to be out a lot before they fired him. They didn't fire him for that, but it made the environment very hostile to him - he was resented by people below him, by his peers and by management. I don't want that to happen to me. I just want everyone to like me.
So today is a mental health day for Blade. maybe I can help Eleri get some rest today too.
What I really needed was that full two weeks of leave. But I cut it to one since work was so busy. Then we found things we needed the money we were gonna save for that extra week, since I wasn't going to take it off. *sigh* Best laid plans if Mouse and her daddy.
