State o' the Blade

[vaxjedi]

I haven't been talking much on here yet again. Here are some thoughts in my head. I can't guarentee coherency, however - I am very tired.

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I got very little sleep last night. Today is a meeting with a group called Children's Intensive. They provide a lot of support and services for families with special needs children. We cleaned up a bit last night. Living room looks really good. I sat down to write up my thoughts for the meeting, since I might miss it as I have to work (it should be during my lunch, barring unforseen issues). I was at first going to write down a brief description of the issues and what I thought we needed. But when I finished, it was 2:30am and I had 6 pages. I worked a little bit on the kitchen, though not enough by far, and crashed into bed at 3am to wake up at 5:45a to get ready for work.

I didn't realize I had so mcuh to say about things. When I type it all out, it does look sorta depressing. But it does explain why Eleri and I are so worn out all of the time rather nicely. If I can fill up 6 pages about the subject while being brief about it, then there is definitely some serious issues going on.

I really hope Children's Intensive can help us out. This may be a make or break point. I'm rooting for make.

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I've been working on Sinnish a bit (big surprise). I found myself unhappy with parts of it and wanted to redesign. I've been thinking about this for a while, but had been holding off because I thought it would confuse people who were interested in the language. But no one responded when I posted about it, so I figured damn the engines.

Most of the changes so far have been minor or in places no one has really looked at yet. The only one that is significant is I have changed the noun endings. That is the only thing that might trip people up. I think a lot of the rest will be the same. Most of the rest of the changes will be in places no one else has really looked at or things I've never written down. So there shouldn't be any problem there.

I've also learned quite a bit about linguistics in the process, which I am pretty stoked about.

I have been obsessing a bit about Sinnish. Well, more than ususal. It's my primary hobby right now. Partially because it's easy to drop when Miri gets fussy. But also I see it as a pure expression of my own creativity. In a time of a lot of stress, it is a refuge. At the same time, I wonder if I am just hermiting too much. So many things I've run and hid from in the last few years - from people, from stress, from my gods... I hope I can reconnect more. Sinnish is going to be my Divine language... so I hope this will help me find my path.

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I think I want to run a regular gaming campaign again. I think in my unnamed background. I fizzled out on the PBeM version of it - life stresses have just kept me from focusing. maybe a face-to-face would be better. I'm a little thin on plot, however - I am very good at setting, but plot is always a challenge for me. Partially because I am more interested in simulations than stories soemtimes - I like building backgrounds and ideas, I like fiddling with things and figuring them out.

I have two people who might be interested in a game if I can find a good time/place to run one. Maybe we'll see after we talk to Children's Intensive.

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More later.

Comments

[hopeevey.livejournal.com]

Good to hear what's up with you :)

I hope it goes well with the Children's Intensive folks

>>hugskisshugs<<

[bhagwan.livejournal.com]

Back in my gaming days, I would start off a lot of campaigns with no idea at all other than a setting. Then we'd just screw around and toss out some random events or NPC encounters for a session or two while everyone gets to know their character. Then I'd just play detective and try to figure out how those events fit together, as if they were actually related. That would usually be enough to form some kind of plot that I could then extrapolate into the future. It helps if the players start speculating out-loud about what might be going on, because then you can see how they are reacting.

[zaiah.livejournal.com]

I too hope all goes well with that meeting.. and am more than a little interested in those 6 pages you wrote! *hugs tightly* My strength to you to get through your day with all the energy and pep you may require.

[arib.livejournal.com]

I work with disinterested, uninvolved, lazy parents on a day-to-day basis, as a result of their actions their children receive little or no care and their conditions get worse.

The steps that you and eleri have taken and continue to take for Miri are tremendous. Hopefully Children's Intensive will be able to help out, and make things easier.

Luck!

[nuveena.livejournal.com]

*hug*