It's been a long week, Charlie Brown....
Aug. 10th, 2002 04:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vaxjediSo after a rough few weeks of being without my own transportation and desperately trying to rearrange my life in all sorts of ways, we come to a period of relative respite (at least for today).
The insurance company decided my car was only with $1700. This was unfortunate, given that I owed $3000+ on the car. The bank I had the car loan from said I could add on the amont I still owed on the old car, provided I had enough equity to cover the ammount (read: things they could repossess if they needed to). And I didn't. So they said I'd have to get a used car with enough equity. This means the car has to be worth more than I pay for it. Which is just not gonna happen when buying a used car.
Eleri's father came to the rescue. He, out of the blue, offered us $1400 so we could get a good car. That left like $100 of the loan left, which the bank said would be no problem folding into the new car loan.
In the interim, I went to Seattle for a training seminar on color management. Adobe is slack, as usual. And they fed us really good. I spent both nights in the hotel by myself.
It was an odd experience. The first night in the hotel, I was incredibly nervous and shaky. It was like my system simply wasn't able to adpt to the situation where I had no demands in my time and energy. I mean, anything I had to do, I couldn't really while I was there. So I watched a lot of TV and twitched a lot.
As an aside (will a possible TMI warning), being alone in a hotel room always makes me incredibly and desperately horny. I'm not sure why.
Anyway, the seminar was actually pretty cool. I understand why color management is such a pain in the ass now. The fact that color spaces are actually incomplete and the number of conversions from one to another make it guesswork at best. Unless you have like $15k of caliration equipment and proper training for your users, that is.
Well, I got back and stayed the night at Alanna's, which was nice. She gave me a ride to work in the morning as well. At work, I got to bring in Eleri and Mousie to show off to everyone at work. Everyone thought Mousie was the cutest thing ever. Which, of course, she is.
That evening, after talking to the bank again, I went to Saturn and picked up a car. A white 1996 Saturn sedan. In good condition except for some paint chips and a tiny crack in the windshield. Not bad for $6500, really, and a lot better than my last car. We'll see if the bank approved the warranty I wanted to get for it. If so, then my payments are as much as I was paying for my crappy Dodge before.
Now I have to work on the really important issue for my car: what bumper stickers to put on the car. I want to put a few, but not a ton - always makes a car look too busy.
Eleri and I spent the rest of the night out. We hung out at Ryan's for a bit, which was nice as well (for reasons that I will refrain from detailing in this form, as they go very TMI *g*). I was a bit out of it driving home, as I had dozed off right before leaving Ryan's, so I was a bit incoherent and wasn't driving really well.
On Friday, we took Mousie to get tubes put in her ears. Somehow, our appointment for surgery had been cancelled, so we waited all day until they could squeeze her in. Got her home and she threw up on me (just apple juice, luckily). hen I cleaned up and watched the Lord of the Rings DVD that Chris and Dawn had rented and all of the special features. Then I took the Mouse to bed.
This mornign I woke up around 9 (nice sleeping in) and took the Mouse downstairs so Eleri could get more sleep. I watched The Musketeer (with vaguely Hong Kong-style French sworplay in it - just what I would imagine a French wuxia martial art to be like) and the 13th Warrior, which was actually a better film than I was expecting.
Eleri is, unfortunately, very sick. Throwing up since she woke up about 1 ish. Chris has been asleep all day (again) and Dawn has been playing with her new laptop (lucky bitch got it for free). So I've been running vague herd on the kids.
Eleri thinks I take the kids too much, especially if I think I haven't dne enough for Chris and Dawn. I don't know. There are times I watch the kids when I feel I have to make up for being gone, or not doing things around the house or such. But sometimes I just take them because it seems easiest. If nothing else, if I take them now, I can ask for time later. I dunno.
There is a part of me that says "give while you can, because there will be a time when you can't. Then, when you have to ask, you will not feel guilty." I was thinking of doing chores tonight. But I might just go see a movie or something instead.
Tomorrow, the rat race begins again. Eleri's father has a birthday tomorrow, so we are going down to Salem. Then another week of work. My schedule is all swtiched around now, working 4 9-hour days and a half day on Thursday so I can get the Mouse to her weekly speech theraphy appt.
Life is a bit busy for me lately. I keep thinking of the quote from Ferris Bueller's Day Off: "Life moves pretty fast - if you don't stop and take a look every once in a while, you might miss it." I need more chances to stop and take a look.
I somehow wonder if I am losing my ability to relax, to play. I don't really game much anymore. Even board games. It takes so much energy to shift gears - too many things to remain guarded about, too many things to fear.
The insurance company decided my car was only with $1700. This was unfortunate, given that I owed $3000+ on the car. The bank I had the car loan from said I could add on the amont I still owed on the old car, provided I had enough equity to cover the ammount (read: things they could repossess if they needed to). And I didn't. So they said I'd have to get a used car with enough equity. This means the car has to be worth more than I pay for it. Which is just not gonna happen when buying a used car.
Eleri's father came to the rescue. He, out of the blue, offered us $1400 so we could get a good car. That left like $100 of the loan left, which the bank said would be no problem folding into the new car loan.
In the interim, I went to Seattle for a training seminar on color management. Adobe is slack, as usual. And they fed us really good. I spent both nights in the hotel by myself.
It was an odd experience. The first night in the hotel, I was incredibly nervous and shaky. It was like my system simply wasn't able to adpt to the situation where I had no demands in my time and energy. I mean, anything I had to do, I couldn't really while I was there. So I watched a lot of TV and twitched a lot.
As an aside (will a possible TMI warning), being alone in a hotel room always makes me incredibly and desperately horny. I'm not sure why.
Anyway, the seminar was actually pretty cool. I understand why color management is such a pain in the ass now. The fact that color spaces are actually incomplete and the number of conversions from one to another make it guesswork at best. Unless you have like $15k of caliration equipment and proper training for your users, that is.
Well, I got back and stayed the night at Alanna's, which was nice. She gave me a ride to work in the morning as well. At work, I got to bring in Eleri and Mousie to show off to everyone at work. Everyone thought Mousie was the cutest thing ever. Which, of course, she is.
That evening, after talking to the bank again, I went to Saturn and picked up a car. A white 1996 Saturn sedan. In good condition except for some paint chips and a tiny crack in the windshield. Not bad for $6500, really, and a lot better than my last car. We'll see if the bank approved the warranty I wanted to get for it. If so, then my payments are as much as I was paying for my crappy Dodge before.
Now I have to work on the really important issue for my car: what bumper stickers to put on the car. I want to put a few, but not a ton - always makes a car look too busy.
Eleri and I spent the rest of the night out. We hung out at Ryan's for a bit, which was nice as well (for reasons that I will refrain from detailing in this form, as they go very TMI *g*). I was a bit out of it driving home, as I had dozed off right before leaving Ryan's, so I was a bit incoherent and wasn't driving really well.
On Friday, we took Mousie to get tubes put in her ears. Somehow, our appointment for surgery had been cancelled, so we waited all day until they could squeeze her in. Got her home and she threw up on me (just apple juice, luckily). hen I cleaned up and watched the Lord of the Rings DVD that Chris and Dawn had rented and all of the special features. Then I took the Mouse to bed.
This mornign I woke up around 9 (nice sleeping in) and took the Mouse downstairs so Eleri could get more sleep. I watched The Musketeer (with vaguely Hong Kong-style French sworplay in it - just what I would imagine a French wuxia martial art to be like) and the 13th Warrior, which was actually a better film than I was expecting.
Eleri is, unfortunately, very sick. Throwing up since she woke up about 1 ish. Chris has been asleep all day (again) and Dawn has been playing with her new laptop (lucky bitch got it for free). So I've been running vague herd on the kids.
Eleri thinks I take the kids too much, especially if I think I haven't dne enough for Chris and Dawn. I don't know. There are times I watch the kids when I feel I have to make up for being gone, or not doing things around the house or such. But sometimes I just take them because it seems easiest. If nothing else, if I take them now, I can ask for time later. I dunno.
There is a part of me that says "give while you can, because there will be a time when you can't. Then, when you have to ask, you will not feel guilty." I was thinking of doing chores tonight. But I might just go see a movie or something instead.
Tomorrow, the rat race begins again. Eleri's father has a birthday tomorrow, so we are going down to Salem. Then another week of work. My schedule is all swtiched around now, working 4 9-hour days and a half day on Thursday so I can get the Mouse to her weekly speech theraphy appt.
Life is a bit busy for me lately. I keep thinking of the quote from Ferris Bueller's Day Off: "Life moves pretty fast - if you don't stop and take a look every once in a while, you might miss it." I need more chances to stop and take a look.
I somehow wonder if I am losing my ability to relax, to play. I don't really game much anymore. Even board games. It takes so much energy to shift gears - too many things to remain guarded about, too many things to fear.
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Date: 2002-08-12 06:38 am (UTC)I don't think you're alone in that. There's a reason that most hotels discreetly offer porn piped to the room.
thus life continues
Without trying to expect too much more than you can give :)
Hope we can both help each other relax.