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Only a day later... it's almost enough to make one giddy. I guess.

So, I picked up a few stickers for my car. A nice little penticle with elemental images in the points, and a rainbow gay pride stripe. For some reason, it's become important for me to have some outward symbols of my beliefs and sexuality. Just a little bit of expression.

I'm actually down at Char's parents. We gave her father a set of IceHouse pieces for his birthday. We played a game of Pikemen, which was a really fun game. I didn't even mind if I lost. We might play Zendo tonight (another game using IceHouse pieces). It's a tough game - for some reason, I never do well as a player. So I'm gonna start off as the Master. Should be fun.

I ran a little bit of Feng Shui last night with Chris and Jeff. It was difficult. They were talking to a lot of NPCs. My weakness has always been NPCs - I just cannot pull off multiple characterizations in NPCs for some reason. And I wasn't really up to any combat or setting atmosphere. I've found like talking about RPGs more than playing them lately. I find the worlds fascinating.

Maybe I'm just not up to running a game. I dunno. Ryan keeps offering to run various games - D&D 3rd, Werewolf, etc. But it never seems like a great idea. Nothing wrong with the game, or Ryan, or the other players...just seems like so much energy to invest. I want to play in a LARP somewhere, but there never seems to be time for it. Or energy.

Oh, just so you know, God (being the perfect being, if you believe in that sort of thing) plays RPGs. But he only plays LARPs.

That's because God doesn't play dice with the universe. ;)

(stole that from Pyramid magazine)

Char's sister Ally and her beaux Nathan were at their parents' for their father's birthday. Nathan seems like a nice guy, but he always makes me nervous. He always seems to be sizing me up, like I was a foe to be measured. And I always get the feeling he's judging me as inferior - somehow beneath notice.

I guess this is the sort of thing that makes me uncomfortable around men - the feeling that I am expected to be an adversary. I don't want to be a competitor. I have had a few women I know say that is why they are not comfortable with women as friends - the overall feeling that somehow they are in competition for the same natural resource (i.e. men).

I'm watching a TV show on shocking moments in Rock history. They listed Woodstock '99. What a joke. They were all surprised that it ended up in a riot. They tried to recreate Woodstock, without the culture that made it possible. Of course, if you put that many people in one place, they are going to break down. However, instead of a ton of hippies who devotely believe in peace, love and copious marijuana who were generally used to dealing with poor living conditions, you put a bunch ton of disgruntled and nihilistic late 90's hard-core youth who were on crank and X who are used to modern amenitites into the same situation. Duh.