vaxjedi | Yet another series of unfortunate events...

Not the movie, either...

So this week has been rough. We were in Portland for several days as I had to go down to visit our tech support vendor (my former employer).

eleri and the Mouse were couped up in the hotel room for several days in a row. The only thing that really alleviated any of it is that the hotel room had a jacuzzi, and Mouse seems to remain calm if she can swim every few hours or so, and the fact that

ryoganox and

jennkitty took Mousie for an evening. It was very nice to be with Eleri alone for a while. But my expenses for the trip are going to be reimbursed - meaning that we are strapped for cash until we get the reimbursement.

We went to a pagan gathering this weekend and I spent the first hour or so in serious panic-fugue about the people there and trying to keep track of the Mouse. Luckily, 'edoa and her beau showing up helped me relax, followed by frolicking in the pool with the Mouse for two hours. But, while we were there, we saw an article in the paper saying that it's pretty much impossible to get respite for special needs kids in the Seattle area because of how many people are looking for it. And respite is precisely what we need.

Then, we get home and there is a note on our door. Our apartment complex was bought up and is being turned into condos. So now we need to find a new place to live (no timeframe was given, or anything about how much of our security deposit, etc we can expect back - I am going to insist for all of it AND the last month's rent we coughed up. I mean, we've been renting for three months and have only actually been moved in for two weeks).

I honestly feel like I've screwed up my family's life for this job. Taken away their support system, uprooted them.

But despite all of this, I am still stubbornly of the belief that life isn't meant to be bad. That life can be good, not just for me, but for my wife and family as well. And I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure that happens, even if it means quitting Adobe and moving back to Portland. I am going to make life work, I am going to help my wife and kids be happy and I'm gonna get Eleri that ring she's been wanting, one way or other. I am tired, but I will not give up.