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[vaxjedi]

I'm not doing well.

I have this interview for a trainer position today. I don't know if I can do it. I am general uncomfortable with public speaking and getting up in front of people. And I'm incredibly uncomfortable with interviews. Put them together and I am panicked. I tried to put together an outline for it last night, but my mind simply wouldn't focus on it - every time I tried, I stopped being able to do anything but stare blankly at the screen.

I should be preparing this morning, in between calls. But I can't. Trying to focus on it just creates more panic. And I can't even do my usual duties in the morning.

I'm not sure the job is worth being a wreck for. Even if it is, I'm not sure I'm capable of handling the stress right now. I want to just email the manager and withdraw my application. The only reason I am not is because I know that I am panicked and my thought processes are messed up. But I don't know what I am going to do about the interview.

EDIT: After freaking out about it for a bit, I feel a little better. Maybe I just need to do some basic preparation and just go from instinct from the rest. I dunno

Comments

[hopeevey.livejournal.com]

Take three deep breaths and do your best?

>>hugshugs<< I'm sorry, but that's the best advice I've got

[vaxjedi]

I'm trying. Maybe I'm just tired and worn out. I just realized, for instance, that I didnt have dinner last night - so I may be in need ot food as well.

[hopeevey.livejournal.com]

If nothing more, food can't hurt - and it would probably help.

[xiombarg.livejournal.com]

I agree with Hope. Breath in through your nose, out through your mouth. Use your diaphram.

[griffen.livejournal.com]

Breathe, hon, and you'll be fine.

[arib.livejournal.com]

Like everyone said, breathe, then eat something.

Not at the same time, you'll choke.

You're more than capable of grace under pressure, everything will be fine.

[quility.livejournal.com]

I have similar reactions to stress - recently while I was packing to move out to Iowa - I started to feel overwhelmed by the deadline and the Hugeness of my coming change and I started to cry. I desperately wanted to call the whole thing off. But I'd already quit my job and told the leasing company to find someone else for my place.
But I told myself if I kept packing it would all get done - maybe not at my best level - but atleast it would get done. So I cried and packed and when I stopped crying I had more packed than if I'd stopped.
I was very proud of myself.
Now I'm looking for work in Iowa.
So I can relate - for me it's the perfection issue. I can't possibly be perfect all the time - so why bother - but I'm really glad I have that recent crying and packing experience to remind myself that sometimes it's just worth it to keep moving even if I want to stop.
Good luck babe! You are a very empathic person and they would be lucky to have you as a trainer.

[laurelyn22.livejournal.com]

Talk slow, and have faith in yourself. You didn't get this far at Solectron for bein' panicked. I think you can do it, and so do those who posted before me.